Screw the plan

I am a loser at sticking to the plan of telling Dancer I'm done.  I am not ready to be finished with him.  I don't know why there is so much lust involved. I don't know why I want to fuck him every chance I get.  But I do. 

Do I want more than that?  Umm.... maybe doing him more than once a month.  And someday, we might need to switch from carnal attraction to the strictly mental kind of interaction.  But it isn't yet,  and until I do have some kind of longer term commitment from Deity regarding a relationship - screw the plan of telling Dancer I'm done with him.   I'm not.